A Dose Of Cynicism

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2007-01-24T10:49:00.000+08:00

a year older but only have i realized the saying that: People will not dwell on what you did but rather what you do.

i know it's late but...

2006-12-27T10:47:00.000+08:00

minasan tanoshi i kurisumasu soshiteiio shougatsu wo!

ph34r i know my kung-fu. hoo-hah sigesai-sa -.-

GTA + Job

2006-12-14T05:01:00.000+08:00

got a visit from a friend, who apparently turned out to be an anime (more of manga really) fan himself. i've known him for years, though it's only yesterday i found out about his otakuness haha >_< listening to his stories made me realize time really passes by so fast and that a lot has changed since then. but i don't think i changed much though. too troublesome and yeah, i don't think i can go on spending like he does >_< later, another old friend messaged me. i can't even remember the last time i got into communication with him. kinda makes you happy that even if time passes by so fast, people you've known are there to stop by and give you a lift. and yeah, maybe read some manga on the way >_<

happiness is not a fish

2006-11-29T13:06:00.000+08:00

i can't remember all the names
(almost) everyone you meet today
is just so fucking vain

ang yayabang syet! sarap patayan ng sigarilyo sa pisnge. coño-coñohan tae

ahem :)

cobwebs on the brain

2006-11-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

now that's off, i thought maybe some activity here would be nice hehe. soooooo where to start? hrmm it's too bothersome to start from where i left off >< anyway, i finally got to network our home PCs and share the net (BIG thanks to the pros who helped me :) which basically means slower browsing for me >< that's okay though as i do not need to share the PC i'm working now that i'm also doing some transcoding myself (because of too much oversized anime clutter).

for the most part, i got stumped wtf i couldn't seem to do windows networking right - b0rked onboard LAN, a newly-bought ethernet card not being recognized properly and a whacked TCP/IP that I gave up fixing and ended up resetting to make it work ><

admittedly, staying in front of a computer now that i've gone solo has worsen my insomnia and it's not improving my social skills either. at least i smoke a lot less now, so who's complaining? ><

mmm i was able to talk with people i used to work with and honestly, i got surprised by a lot of them. wish them all good luck :)

weee

2006-09-09T00:50:00.000+08:00

got great news from a friend and former co-worker that the previous project we worked on won an international award. yay! congrats to the people i worked with. but i'm still tired -_-

recession

2006-08-29T00:43:00.000+08:00

office is starting to get dull. even if i got time to rest i'm still tired. who wouldn't be when you're doing a 2 persons' job xd i feel the need to rest, to think things over. right, i fsking need a break from all the gibberish and technical mumbo-jumbo that's getting fed into my brain. can't remember the last time i got sick because of being overworked. ack my brain hurts. some time off would be nice damnit! it's great when you get complimented on your work and appreciated by the people you've helped, but this time, i want to think more about other things. i'll be back. and when i do...

ps. why do people put "eating" as one of their hobbies? crazy hillbillies pfft

date sucks

2006-08-19T13:12:00.000+08:00

i hate dating. my nose bleed profusely when i do dates. good thing PHP has powerful date() functions >_<

awwwwww just when i thought i had the entire day off, i have to go (but not rush) to the office later. have to fix more permission problems among others, apparently :) while it won't make my teeth whiter, at least i get to file for overtime, that is, if i don't forget to file for it, again. gg

mmm i'm thinking of installing ubuntu on one of my disks, as i'm anxious to know why the fuss over it. but to do that i had to wipe that drive clean as it is filled with animes. crap this might take awhile.

in other news, someone told me that he saw someone with someone doing something. nice bro, going straight to the source haha

headshrinker: all work & no play

2006-08-06T02:24:00.000+08:00

oh em gee! only 1 post for july!? wth was i doing? err... actually i was (and still am) busy with work. mmm i don't think i've been this busy before. there's little time do other things, that's why i'm wondering why i'm making this entry when i could've been playing counter-strike instead, watch anime/wrestling, sing a song, collect stamps or maybe, just maybe, write a poem. amidst all the work, one thing i can look up to though is that they're interesting enough that sometimes i forget i'm beat. and i did get what i wanted, so i think it's all good :-) but maaaaaaaaannnnnn i'm tired. i did have time yesterday so lisa and i went out, watched a movie and i bought her a gift, something i don't get to do very often :-) and i'm glad how it turned out, something i'm looking forward to do again next week!

cochise

2006-07-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

okay 5 things:

1. sms handling is tough coming from a different nature of dev. but i'm getting the hang of it, sort of >_<
2. working alongside female counterparts is tougher. not being a sexist but talking to women isn't exactly a second nature lol
3. got surprised knowing that some people didn't behave like you expected them to, which is, of course, kind of nice *g*
4. i really have to quit smoking, especially when the smoking area is 30 floors BELOW! WTFOWNZ0RD >_<
5. gtalk is better. no, really -_-
6. finished the entire full metal alchemist series. i intended to finish the rest of the episodes in one day so i can concentrate with work. hey, law of conservation is at place here! but still need to watch the OVAs and the movie and Bleach and Chrno crusade hehe
7. reading outdated blog posts is like watching re-runs. (i edited this line for the kids /ed.)
8. and yeah, totally irrelevant title lol.

OLP

2006-06-17T03:25:00.000+08:00

i never tire listening to this song (and their music). innocent had a nicer video though :-)

2 AM

2006-06-05T02:23:00.000+08:00

i walk around my room
not thinking
just sinking in this box
i blame myself for being too much
like somebody else
i never thought i would just
bend this way
then a phone call made me realize
i'm wrong

if i don't make it know that
i loved you all along
just like sunny days that
we ignore because
we're all dumb and jaded
and i hope to God i figure out
what's wrong

mmm that's it, i'm getting me a guitar. i can at least try to hide the lousy vocals :-(

sa-sa-sa-satellite

2006-05-28T04:09:00.000+08:00

quite interesting what you see when you view source. i was looking for info about mutants' decimation, so i, naturally, ended up visiting the official page. nothing there much content-wise but being ever so curious of how things work, i mashed ctrl+f3 (yes opera, i contribute to a whopping 1.3% of the total opera populace. we will rule.) and what do i see? mmm intwesting. an html-commented sql statement. but what use does this give us? probably nothing *cough* xss *cough* but/so we have a starting focal point (with 4.4.1 installed too). so what you decide with that information is left to the reader. sad but i even see corporate sites that have their about pages infected with vbs/redlof. and they still refuse to fix it even if you tried to contact them about it. makes you wonder why'd you bother in the first place. but rather than cry, /me sings P.O.D. for jah instead (yes this song rocks; try to appreciate music (with good lyrical value) other than those that currently pollute our airwaves):

shaken, mistaken, forsaken
its killing me
wishing you can change
but he's always been this way
if you leave now
i'll drown

in repair

2006-05-18T02:44:00.000+08:00

never meant to piss people off. why bother when you can't please all? but you get anxious when you've done someone (nice) wrong

why can't your hair stay permanently short when you cut it? and when you decide you want it cut, the barber's close

how can you say something to someone without fear of offending him/her?

how do you make up for past mistakes? a real-life debugger would be handy; imagine single-stepping events to NOP out bad calls

how can you stop smoking when it relieves you? (and cheap at that)

how do you own disorder? just a thought

must finish version 3 else i'm fried :(

southtown

2006-05-10T02:26:00.000+08:00

programmers are often faced with a dilemma: would you sacrifice the quality of your work to beat tight deadlines? how would you compromise? and no, staying (then pretending) to work after regular working hours (and shamelessly filing for overtime) doesn't count. how can they expect a positive output if you're not given a reasonable time to do the work? developing + testing under one phase? this would spell a lot of problems after deployment (as already proven), so don't claim you make efficient code under these conditions because you don't. and you know you don't. you can't fool your own you know.

here in the southtown, just when i thought it was different and expected good things, it smacked me straight. and people often change their minds don't they? so often that we get a lot of scrapped projects it annoys me. ah well, i hope we're still here to finish this new one. there's only so much you can take that staying is a self-righteous suicide.

healthy in paranoid times

2006-05-07T03:00:00.000+08:00

<sarcasm="sarcasm">
one of the best part of being a programmer is that you can listen to music all day while you just sit your ass working. talking is not required apart from the occasional muttering (e.g. "ayos", "pwede na yan", "bakit ayaw", "system error", "bug siguro", "badtrip", "copy-paste", etc.). and during project meetings, even when people expect you to say something, you can just nod thrice to pretend everything's alright, and maybe add a little smirk while you're at it. but if forced, be sure to say at least one of teh keywords: "system", "backend", "array", "activex", "standards compliant" and most probably you'd get a nod back.

usually, no phone calls to make (yup, no engrish required), so you can whine in taglish or any other language/dialect you're best at cursing with. and you mostly stay at one place, well actually two: your desk where you work and another place to think about what went wrong with your work (flicking a cigarette or two is a common practice these days).

but yeah, programming isn't always this fun, you sometimes (heaven-forbid) encounter new problems that it's practically impossible to recreate teh wheel™, so you'd start to think by yourself. but don't be confused, this shouldn't hamper your dreams of becoming a programmer!

programming, it's a good way to be/look busy.
</sarcasm>

technical note for the purists

i tried making this entry as XHTML™ compliant as possible, with tableless CSS™ layout of course because <sarcasm="sarcasm">you shouldn't use <table> even when it's originally meant for tabular data</sarcasm>. and don't mind it being supported since HTML 3.2 because developers, like your average John/Jane Doe's in these paranoid times, should act cool by submitting to the latest fad even if that craze doesn't suit the requirements but does it anyway because it's soooo cool. ack

T_T

2006-05-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

sad that my sister left the country to work again. one of the shortest month. the house turned quiet all of a sudden. we're missing you both. i miss my barber too :|

Everyone's doing it so why can't I?

2006-04-23T01:55:00.000+08:00

last time i talked to you
you were lonely and out of place
you were looking down on me
lost out in space
we laid underneath the stars
strung out and feeling brave
i watched the red orange glow
i watched you float away

down here in the atmosphere
garbage and city lights
you've gone to save your tired soul
you've gone to save our lives
i turned on the radio
to find you on satellite
i'm waiting for the sky to fall
i'm waiting for a sign
and all we are
is all so far

you're falling back to me
the star that i can see
i know you're out there
somewhere out there
you're falling out of reach
defying gravity
i know you're out there
somewhere out there

Pfft

2006-04-13T01:19:00.000+08:00

Nothing better to do so I thought I might as well write something. Actually, a lot of things happened this past month but I was just too lazy to put them into writing and I'm still too damn lazy to try and recall them all. Let's just say I was busy not only because of work (yes I do have a life).

Too bad I can't come to this gathering this weekend with old high school friends because of my sister's wedding. Ah well, being a brother has its moments xd

Another reason for the hiatus is that I was (and still am) a bit apprehensive - about my work, about the future, and some other things I wish I never had thought about. So I've been trying to think about something/someone else instead even though I suck at remembering people's names meh

Untimely events

2006-03-23T02:47:00.000+08:00

Ahhh been awhile since I last updated this thing I'm surprised my login still works. I haven't been inspired enough to write something of substance (as if I've already written any) and I even abstained myself from watching tons of anime and playing CS but to claim I had to attend on far more important matters is an exaggeration.

Let's see. Finished the initial rework on a site I had no idea how to start with. But that wasn't so bad as I didn't see anything special with the backend. Not only because I was the one entrusted to do it but I enjoyed doing it as well. One reason is I find the color scheme pretty especially on a 1152 x 862 resolution :) How I wish I could have made it more compliant but, apparently, W3C doesn't like Flash™ objects much even if I had chosen a more unrestrictive namespace. But if time permits, I'll work on these "nonconformities." And yeah, don't start nagging at compliance to rules and standards as if you knew SGML. I know my markup and if I had more control over the content and if that <object> tag would work as expected on majority of browsers (user agents as W3C puts it), believe me, I would.

Sucks to see Andrew stopped coming in to work. I hope I'm mistaken but if he doesn't, well, I think I already have some ideas why. And if that's the case, I won't have it against him. I was too naive to think that fate brought me to a more sustainable form of livelihood.

What else? Ah yeah, a former colleague created a group of webdevs of which I was invited to take part in. I'm just not sure if I can play an active role in it though. I wish I can but there's too much else to do whenever I get the chance to take myself off of a computer or programming. Programming is not everything anyway and I don't want to end up like someone who keeps on flapping his gums yet no substance coming out his mouth aside from hubris, which is a pity for non-technical people that some tard is trying to push himself up the echelon but neglects the fact that even himself doesn't know wtf he's blabbing about. Just a mouthful. Bleh

Some witty title that shocked you in awe

2006-03-09T00:45:00.000+08:00

More often than not, I find myself being alone. Though you can't be more free than being by yourself. When not busy (most probably because of work), I find myself constantly thinking of something, anything. I find staying quiet and just keenly observing people quite interesting. Disregard the fact the I (most) probably can't say anything even if I wanted to xd I'm not too fond of reading books either - I don't want to be bound by the author's ideas and (mis)conceptions. But I've always wanted to learn how to play the guitar so I can take my mind off of things but to my chagrin, I just couldn't find the time. This surprises me because back then, whenever I want to do/learn something, I'd make sure to spare some time to do/learn it. I feel that my persistence has gotten a lot lesser by the day and it sucks. I don't want to end up completely helpless.

And I always wanted to do freehand drawing again but can't because I lost inspiration to draw. Hopefully I can regain the once-talent I had. Mind you, I did a lot of it in the old days - I twice became an official school paper cartoonist, joined and won some art competitions. Who would have thought I'd end up doing backends rather than frontal designs :S Though still being able to differentiate a good from a bad art is something I'm thankful for :) Yeap, I think I've let go of the past too much it's crazy!

My one regret in life is that I'm not someone else *g*

CS 101.5

2006-02-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

Funny thing happened when I was playing Counter-Strike 1.5 on fy_iceworld3k - I was accused of "hacking" and I can't help LMAO. Yep, gamers use the term "hacking" very loosely. In online games, it actually means cheating (i.e. use of speedhacks, aimhacks and other crap), much like script kiddies in the real sense of the word.

I started playing CS again for, I think, well over a month now mainly because of boredom. And watching the pros play really pays off *g* Yep, some n00bs told me to "turn it off". And I was like, "turn what off?" And btw, only my YM, AVG and Kerio runs in the background. Yep, I even sometimes disable my firewall because PLDT Play servers sometimes choke up.

One argued that the use of AK not burst-firing (and still do some headshots) is hacking. LOL. I doubt that that dolt knew that burst-firing an AK only ups the chance of a miss than actually hitting a target from afar. Burst-firing like crazy should only be done when up-close yet should be started off from somewhat below the target because the recoil is pretty much high, especially with the AK - one of the many things I learned from people I played with. And knowing internet players, trash-talking is trivial. But I didn't mind them. I just kept on owning their sorry assess. And to be accused of hacking because of your aim, is actually, well, quite flattering :) But yeah, I admit, luck also came into play. But boy have I got game *g*

I remember a friend who 0wn3d pretty much everyone back in our college days. Some players even quit when he's about to play. His dominance in CS was outstanding. I really wish our made-up clan would have the time to play again. Arch_Angel, Bad_Carma and Doc_Leng: you guys rule!!!111!!one!!11eleven. Hey, I just noticed that our handles use the first 4 characters of the alphabet. Most interesting :)

Btw, to Doc_Leng: I apologize for not appearing to have read your recent posts, but I actually did. And I still do. I just wanted to comment on that one entry of yours :) And sorry for sounding gay on my last post but I actually meant this. But yeah, I think an ex-boy band member had a song with that title kaka

Twisted Thought: Territorial Pissings

2006-02-19T01:19:00.000+08:00

Wtf?! It's almost 2 in the morning and I'm still musing? I need a smoke.

I took a break from my usual tech reading and ended up re-reading a friend's blog. I found one of his rants worthy of (my) scrutiny. I quote:

OK, now to all of you "decent" people reading this, this is what I have to say to you, I'M TIRED OF PLAYING THE NICE GUY! Haven't you ever noticed that the bad boys have most chicks? I may not be a bad boy, but it doesn't mean I can't act like one.

So good luck to me, to all of you who think I'm bad ... F*CK YOU!

LOL! Then he called me decent. Me decent? Mmmmaybe. Everything's just a fad anyway, so why bother.

I found this paragraph striking as I knew him as one decent fellow. As to why he made such a remark surprised me. Even now. I mean, what woman in her right mind would pick a jerkoff? Maybe if she's one herself, no?

And I can't justify his reasoning because women never really were my fancy. Nor should they be. Err, should they be? I admit, I find a couple of them interesting especially feisty ones :) But if this way of thinking satisfies him, well.. good luck to you bro. I hope you find someone nice. And I just hope I don't end up like that. At this rate, I don't think I will lol. If you want one, then go find one. Not two or three but one.

So to all of you who think I'm bad for thinking otherwise, go cry me a river!!!11!!1!

The Art of War

2006-02-18T10:19:00.000+08:00

Parental Guidance: This entry contains explicit language and some nude pictures of animals (not really). So if you're easily offended, go away.

I'm back and I'm angry.

Whenever I meet insolent sons of bitches, who do nothing but act (retardedly) and talk big with no clue to back their claims up irritates me. Pretentious pricks who act as 01d sk00l h4x0r d00dz (but in reality, just a bunch of w@r3z pups) and as if they know jack shit makes me want to punch their noses. Those who don't take suggestions and accept defeat because they think they're the better men makes me want to poke their eyes out. Of course, I haven't done something absurd as these. Well, maybe not poke someone's eye out, but well....

I'm pissed at these people for acting all great, doing mindless self-promotion and ridiculous self-glorification but they refuse to know and do what is supposedly, logically and technically correct. Even if their fault slapped them on the face, they still refuse. If this happened in the old days, this wouldn't have gone unanswered. Yeah, in no way I claim I have the l33t3st c0d3z sk1lLz but at least I'm not as lame.

Respects go to the people who remain humble despite their accomplishments. Who never sought recognition. Who wouldn't mind sharing their knowledge to the new ones. Those who continue to delve into the dark codewoods then come out and share their experiences. Lucky for me I've known some of them even if I haven't met them in person but by their handles.

Ah, good ol' times. Sometimes I feel like going back to RCE (I won't bother explaining this), programming/debugging was a lot more fun back then. It gave me a lot of motivation, albeit egocentric. I gave up on RCE long time ago, but what about I give up on coding altogether? As asinine as it might sound, I'm actually considering it.

Grr.

Does the moonlighting shine on Paris?

2006-02-13T00:48:00.000+08:00

Mmmm lack of updates really make this page live up to it's name *g*

Anyway, an old friend messaged me and offered me to "moonlight." And being a very poor fellow that I am, I thought why not? I needed to eat more than 2 times a day and having an extra would be a dream come true! I just hope that my boss doesn't see this :)

This was my response to the client:

8<
Hi xXx, (Ed. Not his real name)

This is Sherwin from yesterday. These are the best I could come up
with. Please understand that I don't really do photoshop designs
(beyond CSS designs that is), so if you'd rather prefer fancier
interfaces (note: eye-candies), I suggest you not trust me in that
regard. I won't trust me to do designs either :)

Project 1
Price: $280
Time: 1 1/2 months or less (upon receipt of requirements)

Project 2
Price: $400
Time: 2 1/2 months or less (upon receipt of requirements)

Note that I haven't had a project which went beyond the declared
timeframe and if they ever would, and provided no more additions from
your side on what has initially been agreed upon, I'll take no extra
charges for the work. I take full responsibilty for any delays.
And I take all projects I'm given very seriously. I apologize if this
sounded rather coarse but I just wanted to clear this issue beforehand.

Please understand that since I have a regular day job from Mondays
through Fridays doing programming as well, my online time on the
weekdays could be limited. But I can email you for updates if you
want. The weekends are most definitely fine though.

My timezone is GMT +0800 (Philippines). I hope we can work our time
differences out and I hope these propositions met your tastes.

Regards,
Sherwin
8<

Yup, I am to embark on a journey of fun, laughter and sleepless nights (more than usual) in search for the solace of moonlighting. Now I wonder if Mr. xXx would be my sailor. But being the pessimist that I am, I highly doubt it because I might have overpriced *g* Oh the beauty (and irony) of BPO.

I know, I know. Gay blog entry title. Whatever. Move on now. Sheesh!

PS. Barbie won't still come out :(

A Doll Moment

2006-02-04T04:41:00.000+08:00

It's 4 AM and I'm still up! Grew tired of sleeping I suppose. And I still can't get Barbie's voice out of my head. A pretty face with a soothing voice is All I Need. And to think an officemate looks somewhat like her doesn't really help :( I even sense they have a LOT of similarities too (ermmmusic?) I won't forget the face, I hardly remember the voice but I think I recall the name, though I'm not sure so don't ask.

A Fright to Remember

2006-01-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Me and Lisa watched Underworld: Evolution earlier today. It was actually pretty good. Better than the first one even. Kate Beckinsale was really hot. I find tomboys as lead a really cool thing - Oni's Konoko, BloodRayne's Rayne, Diablo's Assassin (not a lead in the same context but you get the point). Indeed, butt-kicking chicks are amusing :) And given that Kate was pretty damn beautiful made the leading role even more provocative.

That night, we met up with two old friends. Tet, as she's fondly called, with her fiance, Mel. T'was really cool to meet them again after two years or so. We invited Harold to come along and we're glad he was able to.

We were supposed to go to this amusement park but when we got there a lot of people were still standing outside the entrance that we just couldn't possibly sneak our way in. Sucks. So 'Rold suggested we go drink the night out instead. Since we didn't have any brighter ideas, his was a reasonable choice and it turned out to be pretty interesting, to say the least. We all had a nice chatter and a good time but we figured maybe we should try to come back to the park. We did but sadly, the horde was still too much (admitting redundancy) to do anything. I'm not sure who's idea was it to come to this really gay "haunted" nook but what the hell, we can't possibly lose anything more at this point and besides it didn't have a zillion people standing in line so I played along. To our horror, we found out why a couple of minutes later. As we were trudging the land of the dead, I was reminded of the Lycans somehow, maybe because I couldn't distinguished if the dummies were of man or wolf or a combination thereof.

All in all, it was an interesting (and horrifying) evening even when we bid our goodbyes with sore feet.

A Dose Of Cynicism #1

2006-01-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

Today was everything but extraordinary. Had a headache at work, maybe because I did nothing (again) but worked on my own stuff (RSS, XML and AJAX). I just wish they'd give me something real to work on. I really hate doing nothing. You know, just waiting for time to pass and not doing something ummm productive. It's been like this on and off for a little over a month now (yeah, I couldn't believe it myself) and it's getting sick. I feel sick. And some people told me to enjoy it while it lasts but I honestly couldn't anymore. Hope tomorrow will be different.

It's been exactly 1 month and 4 days now since I left Makati and transferred here. While I can say that the people here seems generally nice, I still feel unacquainted. Well I admit I'm usually aloof (one reason I take too many cigarette breaks). Not that I wanted to though, it's just me being me but I'm working on it. Really. It's just too damn hard to do something you're not accustomed to, you know, be sociable with all that mushiness. Acting all cute and happy. Hmm I even ask myself sometimes how come I have friends haha! Seriously, I sometimes do appreciate people. You see, I'm not totally indifferent.

And yeah, it's funny how people react when they ask me where I work and I tell them and they're like "Wow! Astig!" and other forms of compliment. I retort, "Ha? Bakit? Sinwerte lang." And that's just it, I got lucky. Or was I?

23? WTF!

2006-01-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

Yup, got 1 year older today. Happy birthday to me! :) Not much of a celebration unlike last year though I plan to have a couple of drinks with some friends sometime later this week, maybe weekends so in case I get drunk, I won't worry about coming in to work :) Birthdays really remind you how old you are getting. And I don't like that. I mean, who would want to get old, wither then die? Really.

I look at the past 22 years of my life (I hardly remember all of it) and I wonder, with my age, could I have done something more than I really have? Of course! I'm damn proud of my accomplishments through the years. I worked really hard for them even if I didn't enjoy doing some of it. But I really really feel I could've done more if I hadn't slacked waaaay back then (most of which when I was still studying). I'm thinking if I hadn't, would I still end up like where I am now? I guess not so I know it could have been better.

I wish myself success and the wisdom to identify real friends from assholes. Believe me, I have a handful of the latter.

The Hunter and The Hunted

2006-01-21T11:30:00.000+08:00

Today, me and Lisa went to look for a new apartment she could stay in. We checked out at least three before giving up. But the last one was kinda nice. The price was rather hefty though. But we both liked it so it didn't really matter. However, we had issues with some of the landlord's terms like its 1 year contract, so we thought it's better to look for somewhere else. So if you know one in Sampaloc, please contact me. Thanks!

What surprise I had when a friend and former colleague in Times approached me and asked for advice. Because after almost 4 years working there, he got himself a new job! Congrats 'Rold! I was amazed at his enthusiasm to work for a new company in Makati (not where I used to work, luckily, but close) for I never have figured that he's been out looking for one or even considering it. And I understood him too when he told me the exact reasons he wanted out. For someone really skilled and diligent like him, it was a waste not to harness his skills even more. Actually, I personally know a lot of skilled people working there that I'm sure they wouldn't have any difficulty looking for alternatives if they really wanted. He asked for support and inspiration to help him get through especially with PHP. But frankly, he's the one who left me inspired.

Now, if only I'm as skilled and diligent as he is, I would have 0wn3d. For sure.

New Year. New Job.

2006-01-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year! Even if it's already the 18th as of this writing but oh well :)

I started the new year by landing on a new job. Actually, I was hired last 21st December 2005, but only this year have I done something, really. I was thinking of the reasons why I left my previous work - a company somewhere in Makati - whose name I'd rather not mention.

Basically, I wanted some changes. Because to be frank, I felt I was indeed going nowhere. Maybe because of the nature of the work or I felt my efforts weren't going to satisfy my own satisfaction even if I have worked too much on it (projects). Or maybe both. I reached a point of stagnation. I was left uninspired; Too many bad things happened that I won't try to remember and list them. I just couldn't stand the pressure right before I entered the door until I closed it. But I kept on working. But when you reach the point of unavoidable truth, you just have to give up and give in. And I did. I admitted to myself that that wasn't for me. I couldn't possibly continue to function properly as an employee working there so I left.

I regret leaving some of the people there though and some people who left before me (and no, not you Vic) as they have become friends whom I learned so much from. I just remembered I even owe some of them presents! It was an experience nonetheless, some of which are best left forgotten.

Well, a new year has started and brand new opportunities/failures await us. We just have to figure out which. Good luck!

My TODO in 2006:

1th Study AJAX
2st Treat Lisa to Starbucks :)
3nd Go back to school (Masters?)
4rd Learn how to drive?
5st Buy a domain, make a site, and start earning through AdSense ;)